Assurance of Salvation

December 2, 2010

For some reason it seems every Christmas season I go back to an old web site I used to have that’s purpose was to teach apologetics to the younger generation. At the time when I was doing this, I had been working with youth and young adults for 21 years.

What I am pasting below is from the site that is still up for what I hope is a way for God to use as He freely chooses. It was posted August 7, 2005 and I want to share it now. This season always causes us to reflect on many things. One of them being the reason for celebrating Christmas to begin with…the birth of Jesus Christ.

With this great Gift from God the Father, sending His only Son as OUR Gift to bring us eternal life, some begin to question their salvation. If you are one of those or know someon who is, I pray the following can and will help you to understand that once your have received Jesus Christ as your Lord and Savior, you can NOT lose the GIFT of eternal life that He has given you.

I pray you are blessed by the following:

“I want to share with you this lesson that I prepared for the College and Career class that I teach at my church. I talk to many people where I work and there are always people that say they gave their hearts to Christ at some point in their past, but because of sin in their lives, they believe they have lost their salvation.

I pray that if you ever are accosted by this lie from the pit of hell, that you will have the confidence from God’s Word to KNOW that once you have been born again, it is IMPOSSIBLE for you to ever be UN-born again. Jesus said you have ETERNAL life.
How can something eternal ever be anything less than eternal? It can’t!

Well, my desire is that if you ever have struggled with this issue that you will find peace in knowing you have ASSURANCE of your salvation. Also, this will be a good tool for witnessing to your friends or relatives who are weak in their faith and doubting their salvation. Share these Scripture verses with them and pray for God to illuminate the Truth of His Word to them. Please feel free to use this in your own life and apply it as you would any lesson from your own Bible study.

The Scriptures that Christ gave about giving ETERNAL life speak for themselves. No Scripture contradicts them. What people are confusing is the matter of those who “behave” as those of us who are born again but in fact never had the regeneration of the Holy Spirit in their lives.

The Apostle Paul speaks very clearly on this matter in 1 John 2. In verses 3-6 he says, “We know that we have come to know him if we obey his commands. The man who says, “I know him,” but does not do what he commands is a liar, and the truth is not in him. But if anyone obeys his word, God’s love is truly made complete in him. This is how we KNOW we are in him: Whoever claims to live in him must walk as Jesus did.”

He continues to speak about the conduct of true Christians and those who just want to wear the label as he talks about how we are separate from those who are truly NOT believers. In verses 18-19 he makes it abundantly clear that there are some who were “NEVER” with us. He says, “Dear children, this is the last hour; and as you have heard that the antichrist is coming, even now many antichrists have come. This is how we know it is the last hour. They went out from us, BUT THEY DID NOT REALLY BELONG TO US.. For if they had belonged to us, they would have REMAINED WITH US; but their going showed that none of them belonged to us. (Emphasis mine)

Again, these passages are referring to church members that have a falsely professed faith in Christ and are not true members of the Church. In other words, they are members of the “visible” Church…the church congregation if you will and have partaken in Covenant things that are not for them to partake in, but have left the fellowship of believers because of their false faith (they are not part of the “invisible Church”). By false faith, I mean that their faith is their own human attempt at faith, not a God-given faith that people who are truly elect and saved have. They cannot handle being part of the Church because they are not capable of “persevering” or “enduring till the end” like a regenerate person who is kept by the power of God through their God-given faith. An apostate, as someone who “falls away”, is someone who has fallen away from the fellowship and ministry of the Church because they never had GENUINE faith to begin with, only an appearance or man-made attempt at such faith. This is why they fall away and “go out from us” as John describes in 1 John. They make their false faith known by leaving the fellowship of believers because they were “NEVER one of us.” And I believe Paul makes this abundantly clear.

Again, eternal means just that…eternal. It can’t be anything less. If Jesus Christ has given you the gift of eternal life, and you accepted that gift, it is an ETERNAL gift. It cannot be revoked. Those who APPEAR to be Christians and leave the faith were never truly a part of the “invisible” body to begin with. And when I say the invisible church body I am speaking of the body of Christ of which we are members in SPIRIT since it is our spirits that have been regenerated by the miraculous saving power of the Holy Spirit in and through us. Those who are members of a local church are just members of a group of people, they are not members in SPIRIT therefore they were “never one of us”.

And here I was answering someone:

“Also Ryan, you seem to be declaring the Scriptures you gave somehow refute the belief of “once saved always saved”. The Bible teaches unequivocally that when people come to know Christ as their Savior, they are brought into a relationship with God that GAURANTEES their salvation as eternally SECURE. There are numerous passages that support this fact. Paul says I Romans 8:30, “And those He predestined, He also called; those He called, He also justified; those He justified, He also glorified.” This verse tells us that from the MOMENT God chooses us, it is as if we are glorified in His presence in heaven. There is nothing that can prevent a believer from one day being glorified because God has already purposed it in heaven. Once a person is justified, his salvation is guaranteed…he is as secure as if he is already glorified in heaven.

Keep in mind that Paul asks two crucial questions in Romans 8:33-34 “Who will bring any charge against those whom God has chosen? It is GOD who justifies. Who is he that condemns? Christ Jesus, who died more than that, who was raised to life…is at the right hand of God and is also interceding for us.” Who will bring a charge against God’s elect? NO ONE will, because Christ is our advocate. Who will condemn us? NO ONE will, because Christ, the One who died for us, is the one who condemns. We have both the advocate and judge as our Savior.

We as believers are born again (regenerated) when we believe as spoken of in John 3:3 and Titus 3:5. For a Christian to lose his salvation, he would have to be un-regenerated. The Bible gives NO evidence that the new birth can be taken away. The Holy Spirit indwells all believers (John 14:17; Romans 8:9) and baptizes all believers into the Body of Christ (1 Corinthians 12:13). For a believer to become unsaved, he would have to be “un-indwelt” and detached from the Body of Christ. This is impossible.

John 3:15 states that whoever believes in Jesus Christ will “have ETERNAL life.” If you believe in Christ today and have eternal life, but lose it tomorrow, then it was never “eternal” at all was it? Of course not! Hence if you lose your salvation, the promises of eternal life in the Bible would be in error. For the most conclusive argument, I think Paul says it best, “For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, NOR ANYTHING ELSE IN ALL CREATION, WILL BE ABLE TO SEPARATE us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord” Romans 8:38-39.

Remember Ryan, the same God who saved you is the same God who will keep you. The Lord Jesus Christ proclaimed, “I give them eternal life, and they shall NEVER perish; no one can snatch them out of my hand. My Father, who has given them to me, is greater than all, no one can snatch them out of my Father’s hand” John 10:28-29. Both Jesus and the Father have us firmly grasped in their hand. Who could possibly separate us from the grip of both the Father and the Son? No one and no thing!

Ephesians 4:30 tells us that believers are “sealed for the day of redemption.” If believers did not have eternal security Ryan, the sealing could not truly be unto the day of redemption, but only to the day of sinning, apostasy, or disbelief. John 3:15-16 tells us that whoever believes in Jesus Christ will “have eternal life.” Remember, if a person were to be promised eternal life, but then have it taken away, it was never “eternal” to begin with. Again, if eternal security is not true, the promises of eternal life in the Bible would be in error.

Ryan, our eternal security is based on God’s love for those whom He has redeemed. Our eternal security is purchased by Christ, promised by the Father, and sealed by the Holy Spirit. Once we are saved we are always saved. Our salvation is most definitely eternally secure!

I apologize if it takes a while to get back. As most of you know, I don’t have the time as I once did due to family, church and work committments to continue keeping this site as vibrant as I did. I will continue to add to and try to reply when possible. Thanks for being understanding.
Sola Scriptura,

In Christ,


Happy Thanksgiving

November 25, 2010

I pray you all have a very blessed Thanksgiving.

This is a day for giving thanks to our Lord, the ONE TRUE GOD of the entire cosmos. We may not have much in “Earthly” things, but as long as we have Jesus Christ as Lord and Savior, we have EVERYTHING we could ever hope to have.  He is our Hope and our Shield. Our strong tower of Refuge.

May we be  thankful for His Help in out lives.

Without Him, we have and are nothing.

Happy Thanksgiving to one and all.

In Christ,

Jeff D

Urgent Prayer Request

November 1, 2010

I am re-posting this from L.A. Marzulli’s BLOG where I placed this earlier this morning. I am doing this because I know the majority that visit here are true and pure prayer warriors and I thank you greatly.

This is why the Body of Christ is so important as I just got this through my email where I serve:

“I have a friend with a most urgent prayer need tonight. I’ve posted it on Facebook, sent it to my prayer partners, and wanted to alert you to this need before going to bed.

My friends, Sheila and Jeff, (precious Christians), have a beautiful 14 y/o daughter, Jessica, who is in Children’s Hospital on suicide watch in the eating disorders wing. Her blood chemistry is dangerously out of balance and she’s been near death. In this condition she escaped from Children’s and was alone, hospital gown, no money, no id, and according to the doctors was very near death wandering the streets near Parkland Hospital and the Dallas Market Center…at night! She was gone for almost 4 hours before they found her and got her back to the hospital. She is in critical condition, has lost 60 pounds, weighs only 100# now and is probably 5’8″ and should weigh 140. Her bulimia has ruined her teeth, her hair is falling out in clumps, and she has dark circles around her eyes. She was a gorgeous girl. Now she looks almost like those last pictures of Karen Carpenter. There are 2 critical prayer needs, first of course for her complete and total healing. Next, insurance issues. Her insurance coverage is about to end and the insurance company is insisting she be dismissed later this week. We need a miracle here!

I’m telling you all of this so that you’ll understand the severity of the problem. Just to pray for Jessica, in critical condition and on suicide watch at Children’s Hospital with eating disorders. And to pray for favor with the hospital and with the insurance company that she can stay and get the help she needs. We need a miracle and I know of no other way to get it but to gather God’s people to pray.

Pray for her parents too. They have been through the fire with Jessica and they need a healing touch from God too. Also the little brother, 10 y/o and now forced to be by himself far too much.”

I thank you in advance for your prayers for this family.

Also, I want to personally thank those of you who have chosen to stand in the gap for my own precious family as I too had an urgent prayer request. We have been under the strongest attack from the enemy that I have ever seen and it is still ongoing, however not nearly as strong as it was when I posted a couple of weeks ago. We still need MUCH wisdom and discernment in the area(s) in which we are in battle. Thank you all so much.

In Christ,

Jeff D

Good morning.

I sit here at the PC I use at the ministry where I serve overnight not sure what to do except pray.

Please forgive me if what follows is a bit scatter brained. I know that in these Last Days we know that persecution of Christians is going to come from all sides…including those in your own family. If you are a Christian you ARE called to be a minister. You are a minister to everyone around you. And because of that, you WILL be hated. The Lord calls each of us to our own specific calling. Trust me, when you carry out that specific calling and the more effective God causes it to be, the more you are going experience great trials…and hatred by those who belong to the evil one.

When Jesus sent out the twelve to witness to “The lost sheep of Israel” here of some of the things He said: “Be on your guard against men; they will hand you over to the local councils and flog you in their synagogues. On my account you will be brought before governors and kings as witnesses to them and to the Gentiles. But when they arrest you, do not worry about what to say or how to say it. At that time you will be given what to say, for it will not be you speaking, but the Spirit of your Father speaking through you. “Brother will betray brother to death, and a father his child; children will rebel against their parents and have them put to death. All men will hate you because of me, but he who stands firm to the end will be saved. When you are persecuted in one place, flee to another. I tell you the truth, you will not finish going through the cities of Israel before the Son of Man comes.” Matthew 10:17-23

As a young Christian in my early 20’s I often wondered what that kind of experience would have been like. Today, all you have to do is turn on the news or search headlines on the internet and you can get a quick idea. If those words weren’t strong enough to get the attention of the 12, He also told them, “Do not suppose that I have come to bring peace to the earth. I did not come to bring peace, but a sword. For I have come to turn “a man against his father, a daughter against her mother, a daughter-in-law against her mother-in-law – a man’s enemies will be the members of his own household.” Anyone who loves his father or mother more than me is not worthy of me; anyone who loves his son or daughter more than me is not worthy of me; and anyone who does not take his cross and follow me is not worthy of me. Whoever finds his life will lose it, and whoever loses his life for my sake will find it.” Matthew 10:34-39

When He says, “For I have come to turn “a man against his father, a daughter against her mother, a daughter-in-law against her mother-in-law – a man’s enemies will be the members of his own household”, He is quoting Micah 7:6 which speaks of the Messiah’s return. The rest of the passage is quite hard as well because He is forewarning His followers that to TRULY follow Him there can be NO ONE that you put before Him…NO ONE. Not your Mother, Father, Husband, Wife, Son or Daughter. NOTHING can take the place of Christ if we are to be truly obedient to His calling.

In being obedient, He is sharing with us the cost of true discipleship. His mission here while on earth obviously was filled with tension…always. It also included persecution and death. The Gospel divides families as He was showing by quoting Micah 7:6. The world will experience true peace ONLY when He returns triumphantly as King of Kings and Lord of Lords to rule once and for all.

In the mean time? Get your house in order and do so quickly. I am an eyewitness to just how fast things can turn and how subtly yet in the open Satan flaunts his spiritual victories. As his days are counting down to the end of his being able to persecute true Christians, our Adversary is going to bring HATE with so much intensity that many will be caught off guard and completely blind-sided so hard they may not recover.

While getting your house in order be ready for the attacks because having said house in order is one of the last things Satan and his emissaries will allow you to do if they have anything to do with it and trust me again here, they do have plenty to do with it.

Why do I say that? Because we are at war. Ever since you denounced the kingdom of darkness and the old man, i.e. your flesh, you no longer were under his jurisdiction so-to-speak. Hence the reason we have Paul’s words about our spiritual armor in Ephesians 6. This war is increasing. I read and hear about it every night and see it every day. Things are happening now that have never happened before as far as our enemy having all the pieces put together to make his move on the world to set up his man…the Antichrist.

Part of the trials and testing that we WILL go through and many already are is the unsettling fact of families being torn apart because of the influence of the world and the demonic hordes that daily assail our senses.




Things are getting uglier and uglier. The phone calls I take at night hearing from people who are hurting because the enemy of our souls have attacked their families to the point of them wanting to give up instead of standing firm because of how tough it is has caused great consternation within my own soul.

On this BLOG I have already shared with you much of the trials my own family is experiencing and I will tell you that Wednesday night…last night, I found out how close the enemy is camped inside my own home. I cannot go into detail but we were hit hard and as I write this, I do not know what the future holds…but I know Who is holding me. Satan has been out for my family since I took this position serving the Lord and his attacks are so much more aggressive now that we need your prayers for great wisdom before anything truly bad happens.

All our families are under attack. There is nothing special about mine…except they are mine and I love them so much I would die for them in an instant. I know the next few days are going to reveal who we really are in Christ and who we aren’t. And in the mean time, the hounds of hell will be stirring the pot in an effort to make us confused, confounded and upset with one another.

As I started out this by saying I am not sure what to do but pray, I end the same way. I have expressed my heart because it is hurting for my family and all the other families out there going under intense persecution from the enemy. Thankfully, we know who wins in the end.

Stand firm until the end.

Come quickly Lord Jesus.

In Christ,


“He will cover you with his feathers, and under His wings you will find refuge; His faithfulness will be your shield and rampart.”
Psalm 91:4 

This is one my favorite passages of Scripture to quote overnight at the ministry where I serve.  It gives me great comfort every time I read it.  All of Psalm 91 I believe the Lord gave to me to be my personal Psalm in the first year of my marriage back in 1992.  

I was 27 years old and woke up in the middle on the night with the very strong impression from the Lord that I was to get up and read Psalm 91.  Keep in mind that at that time I had never read all the Psalms even though I had read the New Testament 3 times.  But for some reason I was being led to read this specific Psalm. 

After reading it, I believe I knew why.  Faith has always been my strongest spiritual gift, followed closely and immediately by Exhortation.  To this day when I read the entire Psalm, I still find tremendous comfort. 

I make the parallel to watching movies where someone is standing alone for their beliefs and in doing so they know they have to forfeit their life.  They are willing to die for what they believe in.  I also believe this is why the Alamo has always had such a strong and special place in my heart.  When I am confronted with the images of a person willing to lay down their life because of a greater cause, I am prompted to know that I may one day be called upon to do the same. 

As many of the Alamo defenders were believers in Christ, they knew theirs was a just cause and they were going to leave this world behind and enter into the Kingdom of God…OR…God would somehow deliver them and they would only watch as their enemies fall at their side. 

I know to anyone except me that may be a weak analogy of Psalm 91, but that is what it means to me personally.  I believe and KNOW that God can deliver us from ANY trouble we are facing.  I have done check after check of my spirit in my mind concocting about as many different scenarios of martyrdom as one can possibly come up with in an effort to prepare myself may the day ever present itself.  However, I know that no matter what my mortal mind can think of, it most likely will never be what God has ordained for me before He ever created the world. 

Yet, I still fight on in my mind and when needed, with my mind and body to defend the Gospel of Jesus Christ.  Some day…and I believe it will be sooner than later…we will be called upon to take a stand.  At that time, the world will learn who are True born again Christians and who are just wearing the facade on Sundays. 

If I am here at that time, I will be quoting Psalm 91.  God may allow me to literally live the plot of this wonderful Psalm.  Then again, He may choose to allow this tent that holds the real me to perish at the hands of unbelievers.  

Either way I win.   I don’t say that to say, “Look at how strong MY faith is”.  No, I say this because of conviction.  I see too much in my life from those who claim Christ as Lord but their actions show otherwise.  It doesn’t win you any popularity contests when you confront someone out of love about this topic.  But then you wonder why the Body of Christ is on life support today.  I believe it is because of this very reason…we are afraid to confront those who refuse to live out what they claim they believe about Jesus Christ. 

One day, doing so will get you labeled a bigot and a hate-monger. In a world of subjective emotionalism, such a thing just won’t be tolerated. After all, we must have tolerance…right? 

In any case, whatever and however my last days on this earth are played out I know where I will find my refuge in time of trouble.  Of this, I have NO doubt. 

In Christ,

Real Quick

August 31, 2010

I am coming humbly asking prayer for my family again.  I know what we are facing is nothing compared to so many but I will also say we are at a breaking point.

I know this is for a reason.  Please pray that God will completely open our spiritual eyes to see what He wants us to see that He may finish the work through us that He began.  Please pray that our will shall be fully surrendered to His and that through these trials He will receive all the Glory.

I thank you in advance.  I don’t know when I will update again.  Just know my heart is breaking for my family.

In Christ,

A Few Quick Thoughts

August 27, 2010

It is obvious I haven’t been taking part in this BLOG as planned and for that I apologize.  I will admit that I have just felt totally overwhelmed at times.

My two teenage boys went to Church Camp back in June and both of them had made public decisions that my wife and I had been praying for.  My 16-year-old who is the type 1 diabetic and who is the cause of so much unnecessary grief in our home got up in front of his peers and said he was tired of  living his life away from God and was rededicating his life to Him.

My 13-year-old who a couple of years ago, while spending the night with a friend and going to church with him, went down during that church service and made a profession of faith with his friend. He too got up in front of his peers and talked about how he felt that he had surrendered to peer pressure when going up front that night.  This time he said he had truly accepted Christ as his Lord and Savior and even got up another time to share from his heart what God was doing with his life at camp.

The night we went to pick them up from church after they got back, we couldn’t be more excited as several youth pastors came up to my wife and I and told us our sons had some things they needed to talk to us about.  I knew by the smile on their faces when they said it what had happened…God had answered our prayers.

Now for the fun part.  Since then, our home has been in such derision emotionally and spiritually that many times, I don’t even recognize my own family.  I have NO doubt that my children and my family in general have spiritual bulls eyes on their backs because of their innermost desire to want to follow God.

The enemy of our souls is doing everything possible to keep true Peace from entering our home and finding rest.  In short, I have found myself in a war for the peace of my family that even I underestimated would happen in my own home.  This is potentially deadly serious.  With my oldest being insulin dependent and now driving and any time we try to just talk to him and get a response that sounds like it comes from the pit of hell itself is taxing on the soul to put it mildly.

I know that what we are going through is nothing new and isn’t anything compared to the majority of people.  I actually wear this as a badge of honor that my family would draw so much attention from the armies of darkness because we must be really be a threat to the plans of the evil one.

I share this with you that you may understand the burden that has been on my heart.  I have not been able to drag myself to this BLOG and write a new entry worth reading because I feel so spiritually horse whipped. 

I do want to ask any who read this for one thing; Please pray for my dear wife who just started the school year and is back to teaching.  This year her team got bumped up from 5th to 6th grade.  She is under more than she knows what to do with even though she would never admit it. I am asking that you pray that God gently break her to the point that all the worries that she daily caries will be cast upon the Lord as it says in 1 Peter 5:7.  Please pray she have the encounter with God that she has never had and will become the beautiful daughter of the King that He has always desired.

She is my wife but at the same time she is my Sister in Christ and because of that, I want the best for her spiritually. I want to see her become the Mother to her children that she knows she can be and wants to be but with the realization that it can only happen through the Grace of Jesus Christ working through her willing spirit.

I thank you from the bottom of my heart for hearing me out.  I am very tired as I write this but as I do each Friday, I look forward to spending “Happy” times with my family over the weekend only to see that weekend be disrupted by the powers of hell itself.

It is time for that to stop and for me to lead my family to victory in the Name of Jesus Christ.

God bless you all and lead you down His path of Peace.

In Christ,

Trying Times

August 6, 2010



It has been several weeks since I have been on here.  It is a bit hypocritical of me to not be posting about praising God since that was the Genesis of this BLOG.  This was meant to truly be a place to come and praise God…in all times and all things.

I will keep this short.  I have and am going through the ringer with my 16-year-old.  I feel so bad for my wonderful wife.  Yes, she is beyond a wonderful wife for she must sacrifice living a peaceful life as a wife and mother due to all that happens in our home that has been dedicated to the Lord but seems to stay in hell.

When I leave for work around 10 pm each night, she has two teenage boys and a 9-year-old girl that all are fighting for attention and control.  She can never have any peace…and she sacrifices that peace so that her husband can carry out God’s calling on his life.  It is a difficult process to watch.

They have all three been acting up so bad since the boys got back from church camp back in June.  I haven’t even talked about that I don’t think, mainly because I am to embarrassed.  But that’s another post.

I will just say I will try to do a better effort of keeping up my end of the bargain and continue this site if you guys still want to participate.  There is just so much tension in my home right now that I have just felt like a hypocrite if I got on here and forced praise to my Lord.

I pray you understand and I pray this made sense.  I haven’t slept well at all the last couple of days.

God bless you all.

In Christ alone,

I must offer yet another apology as I have yet to answer those of you who have commented…but I will.

I am finally on vacation for a little more than a week.

Both my teenage sons are at Church Camp until tomorrow.  I have been daily praying for God to move in their lives in such a way that they will come back fully surrendered to His will, broken and humbled by His Mercy, Grace and unending Love for them.

There is still so much work God is seeking to do with my family.  He has been so merciful to us.  We have so many needs right now it is ridiculous.  However, as He always does, He reminds me that what I see as needs for my family pale in comparison to so many just in my own community…even in comparison with some who visit this BLOG.

I am fully convinced that this world is about to change.  Obviously that is a wide open statement that honestly isn’t fair to make.  Has God given me a vision of this?  No.  I have never had a vision in my 45 years of life.  But as Dr. L.A. Marzulli daily points out on his BLOG, the signs are increasing so fast that a person has to be willingly blind or truly and I mean truly and honestly just flat out ignorant of the fact that the world is on the brink of war…even nuclear annihilation.  Of course, nothing will happen outside of God’s timetable…nothing.

I  say this because as I stated on one of the posts on Dr. Lynn’s BLOG, I have had this sense that something…I don’t know what…but it seems like war is going to break out while we are on vacation during the week of July 18. I said it there and will say it here.  I pray I am wrong but am putting it on the record because I want to know if God is beginning to speak to me in ways that I have perceived in the last couple of years.

I am talking about that “Still, small voice”.  It happens whenever He puts someone on my heart and brings them to my mind. I will say a prayer for them as I wonder how they are doing and even as God seems to be telling me to get in touch with them…I don’t.  And every time I have either heard from them directly or from someone else that they are not doing well.

I have already spoken of what happened to my strong mentor that was arrested in a sex sting almost two years ago.  God had been bringing him to mind every morning before I went to bed.  I would wonder how he was doing and would pray for him. Then two weeks before his arrest, he emails me out of the blue talking about the old times. I gladly and happily emailed him back but never got a response.  Obviously because he was leading a double life and God had mercy on him (in my opinion) and had him arrested before he could do more damage to his family and those with whom he was committing sin with.  I still pray for him and know that God can use him in prison to lead so many to Christ.  Knowing him, I have no doubt that like David, he too has a broken and contrite heart.  He lost everything.  And now he is suffering the consequences of his choices.  I pray God is working through him even now.

The other main example was my close friend of who I was the mentor of. He used to be in my youth group where I taught Sunday School back in the ’80’s in the small town where we grew up.  There was 9 years separating our age so as we lost touch after I got married and we both matured into older adults, the age difference was no big deal.  He was my little brother in the Lord.

His was a life that was a living hell the entire time I knew him. From the first time I met him his Freshman year in high school, all the way through his marriage (of which I was opposed).  I was opposed due to the fact that he was so lonely and hungry for companionship that he would go online shopping for a girl friend.  I felt a huge sense of urgency from the Lord to tell him that online was NOT the way for him in particular to meet the woman God had to be his help mate. But he was desperate.

After at least two different online relationships failed, he met up with one from a totally different Christian background.  The common denominator was they both had a TON of baggage they carried. The biggest problem was that he began to move away from being obedient to God during this time.

He used to go online with me to chat rooms where we would witness to the worst of the worst and so many times to just regular teens who were wandering aimlessly through this world with no direction whatsoever.  He was a great brother and a soldier in the Good Fight.

Then he met the woman who would become his wife.  As I said, they both had a ton of baggage they carried. He has many health problems from his childhood that he carried with him into marriage. Then in their first year, he had a horrible automobile accident and broke his neck.  He was in a halo for six months after that.

My friend is the type who is a master of self-deprecating humor.  This was his way of dealing with a life he couldn’t stand.  He told me how I should have been there as they drilled holes in his skull while he was AWAKE so I could smell the burning flesh from his forehead so they could fit the halo on his head.  He said the smell reminded him of my cooking.  That’s the type of personality he had. In the worst of times, he always tried to find a way to laugh…and he would almost always succeed.

It stopped getting funny when he called me one night as I was on my way to work. They had removed the halo but because of his condition, he still was not allowed to do anything as his neck was still in a brace.  He told me his wife would come home and just yell and scream at him every day because the house was a wreck and he wouldn’t do anything to clean it up.

This time there were no jokes.  He was at his wits end.  For the next few weeks we did not contact each other.  But the Lord kept putting him on my heart to pray for him and sadly I have to admit, I did not take to praying for him as seriously as I should have.

One morning I checked me cell phone and saw he had called and left me a message.  I checked the message and it wasn’t him.  It was his wife…telling me he was dead.


I still don’t like what I was told how he died in the hospital. I still don’t understand it but it is beyond my control and I am truly so happy for him now that he is out from the crud of this world and he is now perfected.  One day, he will get a new body with no worries, regrets or pain. But the best part is right now as I type this in the space/time continuum that I am confined to, he is in eternity with God the Father, Jesus Christ the Son and the Holy Spirit doing literally only God knows what. I could not be happier for him.

I say all that to say this.  Those hits I was getting from the Holy Spirit regarding my friends were real. I will find out if what I believe are hits regarding the time we are gone for vacation is real or not. Only time will tell.

I do not desire to be a downer.  I just want to be real and I pray that I am in God’s will and if by some possibility God is calling me in this direction because we are indeed in the End Times, then I will be here sharing what God lays upon my heart.

Updates to come. God bless each of you and may He grant us all His wisdom.

In Christ,

A Little Good News

June 18, 2010

Sorry I have been late getting back to your comments.  I will do so as soon as I can.

In the mean time…anybody remember this song from 1983?

In Christ,